Before i get started from the outset these are my raw thoughts so please don't of me as crazy.Lately i have had dreams about my dad it has been odd,even after a year and a half i still struggle with his death.Some times i wonder if my mind is playing tricks with me.But all too often i come back to my senses and realize he is still gone and i must continue on.Sometimes i wish i had done somethings differently,I have found out now so many good things which have changed how i think of him.All of these things good as well.I wish i had the same positive energy he had,but all too often i am negative and rude.Do you ever want to be something totally opposite of what you are and feel you lack the will and discipline to change?Perhaps it is our personality?I for one am sure we are well able to change who we are,but only with God's help.I have broken so many molds of my life.Only by the grace and mercy of Jesus Christ.I still want so many things in my life.I see others that i look up too and wonder what i am doing with my life.I remember when i was in my 20's,i refused to show any sort of emotion,but this has changed very much for me.I wonder what has changed?Perhaps these are some good questions to ask ourselves?
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